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& Love Is All That Matters After All

Holllllllyyyyy crap. I have not logged into tumblr in what feels like 50 years. Even though I’m only 20… Whatever.

I made this blog during the 2 toughest years of my life. Now close to a year later. Lots have changed…

1) Working full time assisting a LASIK Surgeon.
2) Working on my business degree then eventually my Masters in Heath management.
3) My whole heart has changed completely this year through Gods grace.
4) I have been single a whole year and has been such a blessing to discover who I am, growing spiritually, trying new things, focusing on school and a career and utilizing all of the capabilities I have.
5) Realizing the importance of a true relationship, and not using a relationship as a crutch to avoid other problems I had.
5) My growing faith, and undoubtable love for our Lord.
6) Peace and forgiveness of myself through all of the mistakes I’ve made in the past.
7) Pure happiness in perusing my goals.

Definitely grown up a lot since I’ve logged in here.

January 3, 2013 is the day after my car accident and the second day of back to school at CBC for winter quarter. I ended up changing my class the last minute, and I was literally at my worst from everything that went on prior. I didn&#8217;t want to go to school, or work, or even talk to anyone, but after I switched my class, I walked into class, and ended up sitting by this guy here. He sat down next to me, and showed me a video on you tube of a person getting eaten by a whale, and for the first time since everything happened, he actually made me smile.  As the quarter went on, I only saw him 2 days out of the week, because it was a 3 credit class, but we literally managed to get away with talking and joking around the whole hour and barely ever paying attention. He honestly made me feel so much better even when things kept getting worse, he kept making me smile. I really needed that. We lost touch for awhile after the quarter ended, but by then I was completely restored from any brokenness I had. He never knew anything was wrong, ever. The beauty of life and the beauty of God is how ironic he makes it. God had to break my heart for him to completely enter mine. God took people out of my life and put new ones in. &amp; God put him in exactly when I needed&#8230; And I never realized it at the time. I believe in God for these kinds of reasons. When my life is so far away from him, it completely gets restored by him when I let him in, fully. Both him and I, talked about what we wanted in the future. We talked about our hopes and dreams, and talked about them like they were just dreams. Little did both of us know, that God was up to something. He knew we needed each other, he knew we both needed a good laugh to get through the week. He knew that we would be friends. I don&#8217;t mean cookie cutter friends, I mean true, undeniable, incredible friends that will lift each other up always. This text message honestly makes me feel so much happiness. It was the first time in years someone has called me smart, loving, and passionate. It was so amazing to read these words he spoke to me&#8230; God knew all I needed was a friend. A true friend that is so proud of me, and a friend that makes me smile, God needed a way to make me smile, and this is why he put this incredible man in my life, exactly when I needed it.

January 3, 2013 is the day after my car accident and the second day of back to school at CBC for winter quarter. I ended up changing my class the last minute, and I was literally at my worst from everything that went on prior. I didn’t want to go to school, or work, or even talk to anyone, but after I switched my class, I walked into class, and ended up sitting by this guy here. He sat down next to me, and showed me a video on you tube of a person getting eaten by a whale, and for the first time since everything happened, he actually made me smile. As the quarter went on, I only saw him 2 days out of the week, because it was a 3 credit class, but we literally managed to get away with talking and joking around the whole hour and barely ever paying attention. He honestly made me feel so much better even when things kept getting worse, he kept making me smile. I really needed that. We lost touch for awhile after the quarter ended, but by then I was completely restored from any brokenness I had. He never knew anything was wrong, ever. The beauty of life and the beauty of God is how ironic he makes it. God had to break my heart for him to completely enter mine. God took people out of my life and put new ones in. & God put him in exactly when I needed… And I never realized it at the time. I believe in God for these kinds of reasons. When my life is so far away from him, it completely gets restored by him when I let him in, fully. Both him and I, talked about what we wanted in the future. We talked about our hopes and dreams, and talked about them like they were just dreams. Little did both of us know, that God was up to something. He knew we needed each other, he knew we both needed a good laugh to get through the week. He knew that we would be friends. I don’t mean cookie cutter friends, I mean true, undeniable, incredible friends that will lift each other up always. This text message honestly makes me feel so much happiness. It was the first time in years someone has called me smart, loving, and passionate. It was so amazing to read these words he spoke to me… God knew all I needed was a friend. A true friend that is so proud of me, and a friend that makes me smile, God needed a way to make me smile, and this is why he put this incredible man in my life, exactly when I needed it.

I'm just wondering based on your post blogs, when you were talking about your ex, how you were worth a text message to him, how your body and soul were worth a text message to him, did you "give" yourself to him? I'm just wondering because I see similarities in my relationship with what you went through. I may be on the same boat because I did. =/
Anonymous

Yep. That’s pretty much how it went. & I haven’t been on here in months and months so sorry its been so long!

sheiscaptivating:

Today I got a call from an eye clinic! I’ll be doing receptionist work, and clinical work, if I get it. I’m going to present them with my plan to attend Madison Tech in the fall and obtain my certification to become an optometric technician. In order to get into the program, I need to work in a eye clinic first. I’m just praying, they will understand Im finishing school through this quarter, with 3 more weeks left. Then HOPEFULLY be done with my math credits for my AA, at the end of the summer, so i wont have to worry about it any longer. Either way, I’m just thankful to even be considered for the job. Optometric Technician…. HERE I COME. ❤ 

God, thank you for opening up a new door for me. Thank you for leading me down your path. Thank you for always picking me back up, and never giving up on me. You are truly amazing. I’m leaving it in your hands God. Whatever happens, I know it’s in your best interest. Keep leading me down your path that you believe I deserve. 

❤

sheiscaptivating:

Today I got a call from an eye clinic! I’ll be doing receptionist work, and clinical work, if I get it. I’m going to present them with my plan to attend Madison Tech in the fall and obtain my certification to become an optometric technician. In order to get into the program, I need to work in a eye clinic first. I’m just praying, they will understand Im finishing school through this quarter, with 3 more weeks left. Then HOPEFULLY be done with my math credits for my AA, at the end of the summer, so i wont have to worry about it any longer. Either way, I’m just thankful to even be considered for the job. Optometric Technician…. HERE I COME. ❤

God, thank you for opening up a new door for me. Thank you for leading me down your path. Thank you for always picking me back up, and never giving up on me. You are truly amazing. I’m leaving it in your hands God. Whatever happens, I know it’s in your best interest. Keep leading me down your path that you believe I deserve.

Hey! Thanks for following me! I hope you find my postings encouraging. If there’s anything I can help you with, please feel free to talk to me. Also, feel free to re-blog or use any content of my post and share it to your friends. Take care, blessings!

Of course! ❤

Hey there Lexi. How are you doing? I was just browsing through a bit of your blog. I'm bored, and can't sleep. I'm sorry for creeping a bit. Just wanted to give you some encouragement. Life only gets harder past 18. Well, at least for guys. I'm in my twenties and have been on my own for about 2 years. Rent, bills, plus other expenses just makes life rough. If I could I would've stayed with the rents. Just hang in there and keep your head up. Run to God and He'll run to you. Keep the faith :) ~JL
Anonymous

Awe thank you, It’s been getting easier, just going with the flow and actually listening to them! Haha Hope things are going well for you! God bless ❤

maybe-a-dalek:

What if you had been dating someone for a year and then on your anniversary some people interrupted your date and were all like “YOU’RE ON MTV’s DISASTER DATE” and then your significant other was like, “wow, this has been fun, here’s your $100” and then just left you. 

Lawl

Break my heart, till it moves my hands and feet.
Big Daddy Weave
Bahahahahaha. My friends and I went on a road trip and we went to a gun shop one day, and I noticed a raffle for a gym in that town. So I put in my name as Lexi Tiffballs, and it has literally stuck ever since. Changed it on Instagram. Lol&#8230; Sometimes I wonder when I&#8217;m gonna grow up. Lol 




Probably never

Bahahahahaha. My friends and I went on a road trip and we went to a gun shop one day, and I noticed a raffle for a gym in that town. So I put in my name as Lexi Tiffballs, and it has literally stuck ever since. Changed it on Instagram. Lol… Sometimes I wonder when I’m gonna grow up. Lol


Probably never