& Love Is All That Matters After All

I'm just wondering based on your post blogs, when you were talking about your ex, how you were worth a text message to him, how your body and soul were worth a text message to him, did you "give" yourself to him? I'm just wondering because I see similarities in my relationship with what you went through. I may be on the same boat because I did. =/

Sat, 11 May 2013 17:46:38 -0400

Yep. That’s pretty much how it went. & I haven’t been on here in months and months so sorry its been so long!

sheiscaptivating: Today I got a call from an eye clinic! I’ll...

Thu, 28 Feb 2013 23:48:32 -0500

Today I got a call from an eye clinic! I’ll be doing receptionist work, and clinical work, if I get it. I’m going to present them with my plan to attend Madison Tech in the fall and obtain my certification to become an optometric technician. In order to get into the program, I need to work in a eye clinic first. I’m just praying, they will understand Im finishing school through this quarter, with 3 more weeks left. Then HOPEFULLY be done with my math credits for my AA, at the end of the summer, so i wont have to worry about it any longer. Either way, I’m just thankful to even be considered for the job. Optometric Technician…. HERE I COME. ❤

God, thank you for opening up a new door for me. Thank you for leading me down your path. Thank you for always picking me back up, and never giving up on me. You are truly amazing. I’m leaving it in your hands God. Whatever happens, I know it’s in your best interest. Keep leading me down your path that you believe I deserve.

❤

Hey! Thanks for following me! I hope you find my postings encouraging. If there’s anything I can help you with, please feel free to talk to me. Also, feel free to re-blog or use any content of my post and share it to your friends. Take care, blessings!

Mon, 25 Feb 2013 21:25:47 -0500

Of course! ❤

Hey there Lexi. How are you doing? I was just browsing through a bit of your blog. I'm bored, and can't sleep. I'm sorry for creeping a bit. Just wanted to give you some encouragement. Life only gets harder past 18. Well, at least for guys. I'm in my twenties and have been on my own for about 2 years. Rent, bills, plus other expenses just makes life rough. If I could I would've stayed with the rents. Just hang in there and keep your head up. Run to God and He'll run to you. Keep the faith :) ~JL

Mon, 25 Feb 2013 21:25:31 -0500

Awe thank you, It’s been getting easier, just going with the flow and actually listening to them! Haha Hope things are going well for you! God bless ❤

maybe-a-dalek: What if you had been dating someone for a year and then on your anniversary some...

Fri, 22 Feb 2013 09:42:58 -0500

maybe-a-dalek:

What if you had been dating someone for a year and then on your anniversary some people interrupted your date and were all like “YOU’RE ON MTV’s DISASTER DATE” and then your significant other was like, “wow, this has been fun, here’s your $100” and then just left you.

Lawl

"Break my heart, till it moves my hands and feet."

Thu, 21 Feb 2013 00:15:26 -0500

“Break my heart, till it moves my hands and feet.”

- Big Daddy Weave

Bahahahahaha. My friends and I went on a road trip and we went...

Wed, 20 Feb 2013 22:12:57 -0500

Bahahahahaha. My friends and I went on a road trip and we went to a gun shop one day, and I noticed a raffle for a gym in that town. So I put in my name as Lexi Tiffballs, and it has literally stuck ever since. Changed it on Instagram. Lol… Sometimes I wonder when I’m gonna grow up. Lol

Probably never

Does anyone know how to change the picture on your tumblr, through an iPhone?

Wed, 20 Feb 2013 17:07:30 -0500

Does anyone know how to change the picture on your tumblr, through an iPhone?

iyellrawr: Faith+Hope+Love=Happiness on We Heart It.

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 21:12:19 -0500

iyellrawr:

Faith+Hope+Love=Happiness on We Heart It.

"I know this might sound strange, but I’ve decided that I won’t give my heart to another guy until..."

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 21:11:25 -0500

““I know this might sound strange, but I’ve decided that I won’t give my heart to another guy until God shows me he’s my husband. I believe that if God wants me to be married…He will pick him out for me.””

- (via mywalkwithjesustheking)

Spent the weekend at Eastern and Spokane with my best friend,...

Mon, 18 Feb 2013 16:09:25 -0500

Spent the weekend at Eastern and Spokane with my best friend, for our friends birthday. Love my ladies! ❤✌

I’m too scared to lose the happiness because I may never have it again. I began to lose myself...

Sun, 27 Jan 2013 22:05:07 -0500

I’m too scared to lose the happiness because I may never have it again. I began to lose myself every time, piece by piece. Sometimes I don’t recognize it, but I always believe it is this crazy indescribable love, that is irreplaceable. Every time, I realize how replaceable I really am. I let it happen. I’m never really heartbroken, I guess after 4 times, your heart becomes numb. You don’t cry. You don’t complain. You just go to bed, and wake up empty. I guess I’ve gotten so use to it, that I’ve accepted this as love here on earth. Every time I hate myself cause I let it happen again. Every time I fall farther away from God, but every time I remember how much loved I feel when I’m with him.

Wow. I’ve really sucked at Getting on Tumblr lately… My life is pretty much a big pile...

Sat, 19 Jan 2013 01:29:02 -0500

Wow. I’ve really sucked at Getting on Tumblr lately…

My life is pretty much a big pile of poop at the moment. I’m stuck between liking someone I shouldn’t, and not knowing if we’re over or not, my parents not trusting me, wanting to get the hell out of this house and living on my own, annoyed by my classes at school, not driving my car until I fix it, pay for the damages, going through the motions everyday, and pretty much feeling like the biggest loser ever.

On a brighter note, I found a AMAZING shampoo that makes my hair feel great and look great. & I may be getting a job as a Optical Assistant, and if I do, I’m applying for Madison Techs Optician technical program. (: but that won’t be unless I get everything figured out for sure. But at least I know what I want to do.

I just hate being 18, and soon to be 19. SUCKS. I’m literally suck between and child and an adult and I just want to be out on my own.

Mehhhhh.

Life as a DJ’s girlfriend… Promoting his music....

Wed, 09 Jan 2013 10:22:50 -0500

Life as a DJ’s girlfriend… Promoting his music. & His name popping up on my playlist screen, is pretty damn cool. Go check him out on soundcloud. (:

Photo

Sun, 06 Jan 2013 01:04:49 -0500

January 1, 2013 My mom kept calling me to get home, kept texting me, and asking me where i was,...

Wed, 02 Jan 2013 10:25:27 -0500

January 1, 2013

My mom kept calling me to get home, kept texting me, and asking me where i was, which made me upset. I ran out of Jays house, not bothering to kiss him goodbye, just telling him to leave me alone. He kept trying to calm me down, but that made me more mad.

I went to my car, got in and started to go home. The road I was on, curves into another street, and without paying any attention I kept going straight, looking down at my phone, the texts my mom kept sending me, and right into the curve sign and into a ditch.

It really was like my life flashed before my eyes, because all I remember is, “is this really happening” I panicked and didn’t bother to let my foot off the gas, and somehow managed to get the car back on the road. I was completely sideways, and could have flipped. The sign also, could have driven right in the windows and killed me, but it didn’t. By some miracle, my car completely went back on the road.

There’s damage to the car, and it isn’t running properly, and the front headlight his out, but I’m alive.

I left angry and upset and it got the best of me. I could have left this world angry and never made peace with the people in my life. But somehow God gave me another chance, and it’s my job not to let him down.

We would sit in a lonely room upstairs. The light of the moon, come in from the windows, and the...

Sat, 29 Dec 2012 23:45:28 -0500

We would sit in a lonely room upstairs. The light of the moon, come in from the windows, and the sound of roosters crowing at 3am, because we would lose track of the time. The room was completely empty other than a mattress lying there, with only a blanket and a couple shirts on the floor. It was always so cold up there, so I would wrap the only blanket around my back, sitting up facing toward you as you lay there staring up at the ceiling completely lost in your thoughts. We hardly ever agreed on the same subject, but that was the beauty of it. It opened up the eyes for the both of us, as to why we believe the way we do. We would listen to each other, and that was something we both never had.

This moment. The simple moment. Everything is gone. Every stress, every worry, every pain and suffering is gone, because for one moment love takes over and sets you free.

❤

In time, we will be the person that we took so damn long piecing...

Fri, 14 Dec 2012 10:10:48 -0500

In time, we will be the person that we took so damn long piecing together. We will be stitched together with mistakes, regrets, and nights that we won’t forget. We will soon forget the feelings we had for someone, and try and understand a new feeling with someone else. We will guard our heart constantly, and some of us will fall too easily, while some of us are still collecting our thoughts. A lot of the time, we will worry our parents about our decisions, and they may be quick to judge the people in our life. Dont let the fear of judgment and opinion stop you, from what you love. The key is, to always remain true to who you are, never let someone influence you into bad. Whether we do this or not, we learn a lesson about life. We create new memories and feelings and even it it may be for a short while, we are happy. Never regret happiness.

I may have made a few mistakes, but without it, I would never have learned my lesson. So let me be. Let me continue to make mistakes, because I’ll always remain curious and regretful if I don’t. I’ll become a better person. So let me continue being the girl that makes mistakes. That’s life. & I want to continue being the girl who learned her lesson, than the one who never learned at all.

Took Jay to the doctor this morning. He ended up knocking out on...

Tue, 11 Dec 2012 21:54:59 -0500

Took Jay to the doctor this morning. He ended up knocking out on my lap, before the doctor came in. He’s so sweet just sitting there, fully content just being with me, even though he feels completely miserable. I really do love, these little things about life. The simple comfort of one another, means so much to someone. The simple act of kindness, and going out of your way to make someone feel better, its pure bliss.

I’m so drawn to you, because of how much life is inside of you. You’re a free spirit,...

Sun, 09 Dec 2012 11:09:40 -0500

I’m so drawn to you, because of how much life is inside of you. You’re a free spirit, you have found your identity and embrace it fully. You have so much passion and put it in everything you do. Your love for music is intriguing. I can sit there and watch you master all of the pieces. I can listen to you talk all day about each synth and how much bass is needed.

It amazes me how quick people are to judge you. You are no considered the “party boy” because you go to shows and festivals. What they don’t know, is you go because of the music. Not to dance with random girls, but to dance by yourself. You can stand there with your arms raised in the air, eyes closed, not moving at all, but focusing on the music. Depicting each sound, and completely lost in your element.

That is what makes me so drawn to you, you have passion… While I’m still going through the motions, with a lack of passion and focus on what I really want.

You bring out a side of me, that I never see. You bring out the life in me. I couldn’t be more thankful.