Took Jay to the doctor this morning. He ended up knocking out on my lap, before the doctor came in. He’s so sweet just sitting there, fully content just being with me, even though he feels completely miserable. I really do love, these little things about life. The simple comfort of one another, means so much to someone. The simple act of kindness, and going out of your way to make someone feel better, its pure bliss.
My heart aches when things aren’t right between us. When we leave each other upset, or we sit there in silence because we’re both too stubborn to apologize or admit we’re wrong.
You call me out when Im getting too mad, but I’ll never admit it. As much as we fight and argue, every time you always tell me you love me. It never fails.
I know we’re not exactly “the perfect couple” or have the “perfect relationship” We don’t always admit our feelings toward each other. We don’t spend everyday together, we don’t always “miss” each other. But there are times at night that I forgot about how busy I am with life, and how stressed out I am, and just miss you. Not because I need to see you, but because I love you so much.
We may be growing up, but I couldn’t imagine growing up without you by my side.
The world will try and push you down. You fall, to learn how to get back up. You won’t get it right every time. You will make mistakes, you will give your all, you will get hurt in the process. But I guarantee you, one day you will be singing in the car, and not even realize the contentment you have. You will forget about every heart break, every tear, every word that torn you up inside. You will know your worth, and every person that enters your life, and makes an effort to stay, is your reason to have that happiness. Things always get worse before they get better. Remember that.
I laugh at the world, because my problems are too minute, for the world to stop for. Laugh at your past, laugh at the failures, laugh at the people that brought you down, because trust me, everyone would kill to see you fall. Stand tall, and keeping going, because happiness will find you and life will give you what you deserve.
I’m pretty sure snuggle time with this little furball is my favorite part of the day. I love my dog so much (:
That Brown Old Ford ♥
We both just turned eighteen.
We were just about as wild as we were green
In the ways of the world
He’d pick me up in that brown old ford
We were free of the folks and hiding from the cops
On a summer night
Running all the red lights
We’d park way out in a clearing in a grove
And the night was as hot as a coal-burning stove
We were cooking with gas
Knew it had to last
In the back of that brown old ford
I said please don’t stop.
Well the very first time his mother met me
Her green-eyed boy had might have been a father-to-be for two weeks
He was out of job and I was in school
And life was fast and the world was cruel
We were young and wild
We found out we werent having a child
So we did what we did and we tried to forget
And we swore up and down there would be no regrets
In the morning light
But on the way home that night
From the back of that brown old ford
I said please don’t stop… loving me
We took one more trip around the sun
& there was times we thought it was all make believe,
And I can say where he is today, still right by me
I can’t remember who I was back then
Well you do what you do and you pay for your sins
And there’s no such thing as what might have been
That’s a waste of time
Drive you out of your mind
I was stopped at a red light just yesterday
Beside a young boy in his brown old ford
And his eyes were green
And I was in an old scene
I was back in that brown old ford
On the day he said, he’d kept loving me
I was back in that brown old ford
On the day he said, he’d keep loving me
See that ring on her finger? Its a reminder of everyday of how much he loves her. He saves her everyday.
We were barley seventeen, and we had the whole night ahead of us. We were caught up in being rebellious and getting our minds off what really hurt us the most at that time. We drank, till every ounce of care was gone. We both hurt each other in the past. We were barely able to speak to each other without wanting to just fight with one another. We didn’t come to open old wounds. We came to let go of the past, but we really weren’t expecting how drastically things were about to change.
I wasn’t exactly what you would like to call “the right state of mind” and you weren’t either. You took my hand down every step, it’s amazing we actually survived through it. I sat down, barely even able to keep my posture. We both went in to kiss each other, and that’s the moment that changed everything. We woke up next to each other, with not a regret in the world. You grabbed my waist, to pull me closer, not for a kiss, but simply just to hold. We did care about each other, more than anyone could possibly know. We didnt need to tell each other, but a simple touch, revealed it. We may have had a complicated life together, but non of that mattered anymore. You and I were what mattered the most. Feelings, mistakes, and the past all aside, it was us that we needed the most. We may have meant nothing to each other prior, but we became a priority after.
It would have been easier for both of us to give up on each other. To never forgive or apologize. To stay bitter towards each other, but it wasn’t worth it. Look at us now? We could have missed all of this… If we didn’t just take a chance. To this day, we still think how crazy it was that we actually didn’t like each other. We honestly couldn’t stand each other. Now? Now were inseparable. We love each other, through every struggle, we’ve been Hurt by each other more times than you can count of your fingers, we’ve been through everything that was meant to tear us apart, but we came out even stronger. Our only perception of each other was because of one stupid mistake, and a ton of fights. We never got to know each other for what really counts. I would have never known how generous, how smart, how funny, how kind hearted and amazing you are, inside and out. It took one night for everything to change, & it took one apology for both of us to be completely in love.
Think of this. You may hate the love of your life right now, but it takes a simple, “I’m sorry” or “I forgive you” for you to live your life with someone wonderful.
