Well, you drive me crazy half the time, the other half, im only trying to let you know, what I feel is true. & im only me, when im with you. ♥

I’ve spent my whole day off helping Seth get his shit together. Since he got in his wreck, he has no truck so it’s been tough for him to get things done. We applied for 3 different jobs, I did his laundry, and took him to an interview. I feel like I deserve a reward. (; Yes. Haha

Yesterday, you told me that you were the lucky one. You looked me in the eyes and told me I was beautiful, that I was special. You told me I was the only one that cares enough about you, and loves every imperfection. You told me how lucky you were to have me. The truth is, Im the lucky one. You forgave the unforgivable. You looked past my selfish carelessness of your heart in the past, and still loves me the same. You see me as this amazing person, and you only see yourself as just another person, that I could do better. You dont see yourself the way I see you. You dont see the guy that has every oppurtunity just waiting for him, the guy that EVERY girl would kill to have, the guy that forgave the girl that broke his heart, the guy that tells me I look beautiful even when I just rolled out of bed, the guy that spent his whole paycheck just to buy me something special for my birthday, the guy that goes out of his way to just make me smile, the guy that will protect when I need it, the guy that loves me for who I am. I’m the lucky one.

I face the fear everyday of how death can touch a loved one… Everyday is a miracle.

A bruised beaten and shattered heart, like mine, knows that looking into the future is harder than looking into the past. The futures is terrifying because something you love will no longer be in it. Well guess what? That “love” is better in the past than in the future. You may not feel like it is, but in reality… its the best thing that will ever happen to you. It bugs me when people say, “But, I’m fighting for love.” Why? Because I use to say that. But I learned… I shouldn’t fight for something that doesn’t love me back. Its a waste of time. Time is precious, and we will never get it back, so why waste it on a heartbreak? Use that time to find yourself & realize what love really is… Because trust me, it not waiting for someone that doesn’t know yet if they want to be with you, and it sure as hell isn’t being heartbroken. You deserve better. We deserve better. I’m not settling for a broken heart. I’m going after true love…. & you should too.